it's grandma. You will hear many things, but the best is to question advice from authority. Not necessarily your parents, they'll be great, but all gov, cops, courts, please see The Lie by Raleigh. I've left everything for you. Your mom and I have always real tight, could talk about anything, and did anything, so much. I love you so much, and want you to have and maybe suffer for what you need. If I get outta this hell, you will have so much, I'll make sure of it. Life is quite a journey, and you were born in a precarious time. Ben, I know the limitations, the heart break, the weariness. Believe me, I'm with you, forever. when in doubt, Do it for Jonnie. ha. Love always. forever and a day.