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David, thank you. I'm thanking Joni today too.

News from Iowa Congressman David Young Home About Me Media Center Services Contact Friends, One of the highest honors of my life is to serve the people, families, friends and neighbors of Iowa in the U.S. House of Representatives. Each and every day, whether I am in Washington D.C. or any of our three Iowa offices, I am reminded who I work for - the people of Iowa’s Third Congressional District. In fact, the first thing folks see when visiting any of our four constituent service offices is a sign near each front door which reads: “ This office belongs to the people of Iowa’s 3rd District. Welcome! ” This sign, along with the hundreds of meetings I have with thousands of Iowans a year, reminds me of the most vital responsibility I have as your U.S. Representative - to serve as a resource for my bosses. I think it’s safe to say that working with the government is not always the easiest thing to do. As I travel across the district, I often hear from Iowans about how f

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a family who knows my dad, knows my last name, knows I'm in the phone book, and their son worked with Alec in high school, their son graduation party, invitation sent to my parents, to Dave, Judy, and Alec. At a dance, older couple comes up to Alec and me, says to me, Oh, that's the Fletcher boy, right? Call up to the high school to get immunization records that might still be there for Alec, receptionist goes to look, comes back on the phone, Judy, we may have them, but they were sent with his diploma, if you can look through your records.

the truth or not

Sheri, you also don't know what was said about you to that lawyer when they said he was living with his biological mother but they were doing guardianship. Was it forced indirect aggression against you?

ah huh. Take

that lawyer that gave you advice to start a Trust Fund for Alec did you a grave disservice, and I'd like to report him. He sits on 100K or more a year, and think those on limited income should start paying for a future that might not ever come. 200 dollars a month you put into it from mileage you get for taking Alec might not seem like a lot to this guy, but it would mean a lot to me.

When I was applying for SSDI, there was a very lengthy history done on me on all the jobs I've had in my life. there had to have been over 30 that I needed to report, including the duration, the pay, the ability I had or did not have to do the job and keep it. This is in some ways related to how much they will determine or set your monthly check at. I like that when I'm well, I can earn the exact same amount as my check each month, and they know this is what I'm capable of.

schizophrenics, their families, and politicians need to stop saying, Mental health is the same thing as physical health, or, If I had diabetes, I'd be treating it. This is a way to break down prejudice and stigma but in fact does the exact opposite by bringing schizophrenia into a normal grouping. I do however believe we need to talk more about the biological factors of schizophrenia, the gut, the blood, the pain and trauma.

brain interface mind control with EMF and implants works against the suspect to actually attack and cripple itself, in my case, mental illness hallucinations, mapping my emotions to create a total effective psychotic episode, trigger on each situation that brings biological and physical pain if not given some kind of relief, but mainly the mind does a lot of this to itself, and the government watch on us, is the danger to ourselves and others possibly

what I really want

  It might seem strange after all I've endured to basically want to know who gave our government agencies the authority, equipment, ability to sustain such a program for so long with so many involved in mass media and so much work on the part of suspects to get out of it. Yes, I want my legal rights, but I also want to able to look my executioner in the eyes, who allowed all this, gave it justification or spent millions? I already know I'm in it, and might not get out of it, but knowing who's responsible is the way I want it to end.

response back from me

I will do so, thank you. More specifically, and not necessarily legal representation, but the truth into these massive watchdog lists, and whether THEY have the legal right to do so by some court, judge, governing branch.... my surveillance started before the Patriot Act.

response I got from Ombudsman office, Des Moines

April 28, 2017 Ms. Grutz: This is in response to your April 13, 2017 letter.  The legal subject matters of privacy and government surveillance is outside of our expertise.   We also do not provide legal advice or assistance.   To assist you,  I would suggest if you ask the Iowa ACLU whether you have the legal rights to know whether or not you are on a government watch list or being watched by a government agency  You can reach them by email at   legal.program@aclu-ia.org .    If you request information, they may be able to provide you a publication on your privacy and surveillance rights.

I think we're set for awhile, Phil. one thing I always promised my kids, we'd never go hungry.

it's getting a little too depressing (new sketch)

new sketch (by sheri) the man at the phone company walked through so many yellow pages of days just to see who'd be there to sell their soul and he called up the banker and the lawyer and the florist but all they gave him was a rain check he thought, Well, maybe I can get my feet wet now Lucy was a woman he could plant kisses with and get baked and drive the moon over steep rooves he told her he had her number everyone did she was highlighted in everyone's line of work I'll make you a deal, she told him, if you can bring me work, I'll take a page out of your book so he did what he could delivering year after year but she told him one day, the dessert is too rich and the coffee is too strong, and they say the smokes and the beer are imported so he stripped more than his clothes but the vanish from the wood, but she said, it's too rough and buckled and won't bur

2 short prose poems (the song of spring)(the ocean)

The song of spring (by sheri grutz) The song a heart made of ribbon made the head go soft against the hard rain not a hat but a bow when he said it was his gift to carry every day gives what they can't tie up throwing arms around the world the sun rising pitched in the sky and the words melt the packed surface a song dances through trees the lips of pots overflowing but if his shattered dream was glass he'd learn to pierce his mark The ocean (by sheri grutz) Sand slips through holes in her life in a box a pebble stays in the shoe finding this shore was any unearth to layers in her mind gone deep it is the same for miles moving mountains and terrain and planted stars water collects in her small step moving vastness and energy a rush of birds or runner or explaining that wind she is a child pushing off the vessel and drifting away

they've taken my kids, and any good feeling I have about my kids, my house, and any good feeling I have about my house, my writing, and any good feeling I have about my writing, family, friends, jobs, the past, the future, every waking moment, my dreams, my thoughts, everything I see through my eyes, my mental health, physical health, money, everything I do online, say or text on the phone, total and absolute control of all of my surroundings

Phil and me

The Lost Date (a poem\sheri grutz)

We went wandering through death for the first time of many and found the trinket made of stone it was the birth stone laid against waters as always a fish on the dash said Jesus I pulled a rainbow from a tear and put it under a scope and it looked like veins curled around that baby in my arms a cell electric as a flash of sun on a crystal of ice the distance of the sky a shimmering and highlighted star set in the mouth of the river there was a word that turned green to brown when I heard day fall through the net of praying hands or it was a hole in my heart that couldn't be empty enough

to Steve Lindner, DeWitt Iowa City Administrator

Steve, there was a woman in this town who worked at Travel Mart, she came to visit me for services, she has bipolar. Me, and many, many others saw what happened at that job, she was literally forced out of it. These prominent men who own these places in town come to my house and want me to give them 45 dollars to erect a flag in my yard, the O'Neil's, the Schnurr's, etc. some of these people I have known all of my life. I went to everyone at Guardian Glass to report harassment verbally over mental illness.  Nothing was done I know that departments in this town, Kevin Lake or others hate the mere thought of me being here, and I guess they can take their healthy job and healthy life all the way to the bank from suckers like us.
Once a Republican asked for 5 dollars for lunch, he said, I'm sure I can get friends. Someone called out, Not good for your liver, and he thought, I didn't think people cared, it's all I've ever seen and known and talked about.

3 out of 10 persons in their twenties will go through a major mental breakdown, and will not get the support and backing from their employer or any co-workers, it will become fodder at the water cooler, and for men, it could turn violent. of these people going through a life changing episode, their job performance and ability to cope will force them into disciplinary actions by the company, adding fuel to the fire.

hmmm,

Dear Sheri, Thank you for your application for the Ambassador position with Tassel Ridge Winery. We are writing to inform you that we have recently filled this position. Should our situation change for any reason, we will certainly let you know. Please note that all applications and resumes are kept active for 90 days.  Again, we sincerely appreciate your interest in Tassel Ridge Winery and wish you well in your employment search! Sincerely, Human Resources Response: One of three things you can do in Human Resources for your company is, interview everyone who applies for a job with you, it shows an openness and willingness to get to know all different kinds of people, promotes your business, and gives fresh eyes to your approach. If you can, schedule group interviews, and see how well each person interacts and what they bring to the table.  Second, challenge yourself as a employer to know what each candidate knows, and not be so stuck in your single minded thinki

visual of that night. but she did give you the pic.

Sheri goes union.

right now, pic, concerned over the meeting yesterday, so many clients and staff overweight.

Ann, I was almost sure I could speak for all of us, not just a few. I was almost sure that I was beginning to make to sense in my own mind. Imagine getting a following here, schizophrenic, dead beat, death grip on my head. Once I formed so many great thoughts into a poem that would last for centuries. It did nothing, Ann. The best I can do is lighten the load, for me and others, they don't want stale rhetoric of nothingness.

when Ann Coulter and her black lover sit down for dinner

Honey you know I'm your lapdog for you You know I don't like the heat Nothing just some stray accusations I only like the look and the feel Maybe I should let go of bitterness I never questioned your taste I only want to challenge every upper hand I bet you say that to all the boys in hand to hand combat If I can't make a difference then I'll become Become what Something like my own mother

people are really upset about MR pop. no making liveable wage, more like about 40 or 50 dollar paychecks for some of them every two weeks. it's not all Republican/Fed/Wash. D.C. the way Robin said it. Yeah, working in the community is good as long as the fixed income doesn't make them all pay more. It is so hard for me to find integrated sports for Alec. I did it when he was little, holding his hand on a regular soccer team, all the parents squinting their eyes at me, What is she doing out there? there will always be exclusive services for the disabled. I would think so.

a poem today

poem being watched and being watched poem by sheri dream against green is hidden outline of a length not to naked eye no few words exposed imagine the dying light not followed I know you have no shell my killer look will take you chlorophyll pushed the mountain out of your mind the climbing hours don't surrender each step loose as charming men in their peak this apple tree white confetti birth of birds nature sucks the tit of a cluster of stars alright foreign body take the next river in your heavy and make this distance disappear

here it is

'Allen Ginsberg Forgives Ezra Pound on Behalf of the Jews' December 9, 2010 By  Rodger Kamenetz Each Thursday, The Arty Semite features excerpts and reviews of the best contemporary Jewish poetry. This week,  Rodger Kamenetz  introduces his poem “Allen Ginsberg Forgives Ezra Pound on Behalf of the Jews.” This piece originally appeared on December 7, 2001, as part of the Forward’s Psalm 151 series. It is being published here online for the first time. Getty Images Celebrating one year of editing Psalm 151 for the Forward, I hope readers will forgive me if I add a poem of my own to the mix. “Allen Ginsberg Forgives Ezra Pound on Behalf of the Jews” is a verse essay, a form that allows the exploration of ideas and associations as well as the use of documentary material. The stepping off point for the poem is a 1992 interview I did with Allen Ginsberg while writing “The Jew in the Lotus,” when Ginsberg made very clear his deep Jewish roots, but also his strong critic

And the media will continue to let him off the hook, as well as every other president who sitting in office while my dreams were being watched, thoughts heard, surveillance of everything I was doing, two kids losing all privacy, and then the ones sitting in office when I was being electronically tortured. how does the media do it, Sheri? they've become numb, and insulated against not only this, but everything you suspects do to get out of it.

in 2010 I had an MRI with contrast done here in Davenport, waited eagerly for what they would find, heard on the phone, it all looks fine, went in real mad, and the Neurologist showed me the picture of my brain in order to convince me, but I barely viewed it. I'd like to have asked if it looks like a schizophrenic brain, or any other signs. there was a polyp in my sinuses. I'd like others to take a look at it. maybe there's a way for me to get a copy somehow. during that time, I had the most views on my blog than any time since I started blogging.

Visual. we do CF walk here. I go still to pray for Beth. sometimes new shoes run to the point I collapse.

go into McDonald's here in town, older people it's mid day, standing waiting for their order, looking things over, a couple is ordering an elaborate and to the point order of food and dessert (I want caramel on the bottom, then nuts, chocolate on the top with no nuts) sitting eating the salad and parfait, cashier comes up to older man, What didn't you get? I need a drink. What kind? Coke. Coke with no ice? yes. ok, (reluctantly) I'll get it for ya.

another reason why the schizophrenic can't leave the house

library trying to print off tickets to Sultan and the Saint Imax forgot change and phone in car gmail:  we don't recognize your location please your phone for verification tried 3 times, gave me, realized they can scan it off of my phone saw a flier for Safe Houses, from stalking and domestic violence parking lot of library, man is turning around, so I wait in middle of parking lot he goes, I start to go woman who must be in the handicapped spot pulls out aggressively so close to me, inches in front of me not sure what to do, laid on my horn, she pulls back in but not immediately I go slow and find out she's behind me coming the opposite way she had pulled out soccer games, I go slow, speed limit is 30 she speeds around me, no handicap sticker called Beth, it better have been somebody having a baby, Beth hungry, targetted since the highway near Eldridge, maybe I won't go stop at Wendy's, 3 outdoors tables in front, empty, beautiful day, it'

A poem by Edward Hirsch

To Poetry Don’t desert me just because I stayed up last night watching  The Lost Weekend . I know I’ve spent too much time praising your naked body to strangers and gossiping about lovers you betrayed. I’ve stalked you in foreign cities and followed your far-flung movements, pretending I could describe you. Forgive me for getting jacked on coffee and obsessing over your features year after jittery year. I’m sorry for handing you a line and typing you on a screen, but don’t let me suffer in silence. Does anyone still invoke the Muse, string a wooden lyre for Apollo, or try to saddle up Pegasus? Winged horse, heavenly god or goddess, indifferent entity, secret code, stored magic, pleasance and half wonder, hell, I have loved you my entire life without even knowing what you are or how—please help me—to find you.

short poem

The man who said I was close (a poem by Sheri) 0 is cut into 6 by a wire of 1 conductor's wrist of 2 6 winds the belt something missing from 1 weather vane of 2 0 does donuts 6 is a tea pot 1 won't fall or hang on the hook of 2 an inch between us

Lips (a poem)

Lips by sheri grutz The lip of the moon is chapped with dead skin words whitened out with fear the wrong sky will be seen lip of a clown dressed in 4 th of July lip caked with too dry cracks too much salt but painted tears dropping rocks sucked of time lips around each lit cigarette the haze over eyes ashen look the only rest is a bird here on a black limb so many limbs to its direction lip unkissed of red planet closed unsaid unfire unspice no tip of shoes or nose of that clown lip that connects with the dead silence moon a bandshell these silver dreams rising stinging puckered lips unhigh unstringed teeth tear the lip of water the lip of a hill the lip curved in the white glove drawing out hours broken on solid steps taken a million times adding and subtracting lips kissed smoothed as two sails outlined breath leaving from shallow to deep lip undrink unsleep unlace to wear