they've taken my kids, and any good feeling I have about my kids, my house, and any good feeling I have about my house, my writing, and any good feeling I have about my writing, family, friends, jobs, the past, the future, every waking moment, my dreams, my thoughts, everything I see through my eyes, my mental health, physical health, money, everything I do online, say or text on the phone, total and absolute control of all of my surroundings