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 sure have seen it and been thru it though.  They haven't, Sheri.  you're biggest weakness is not realizing how big you are.

 being a mom.  watching PBS.

 coughing a lot.  I've got air purifier going all the time.  it's her heart I think. she's always had been my running partner, sprinting.  I can't imagine anyone loving me more than her.  mutual.

 when I was a kid, did that with pizza in it, and thought it was done after 5 minutes, almost burnt. vomited all over the bathroom toilet.  called my parents, they were up at Weeks Tap, they came home, and had to clean all that up.  ahh, I never did that again, pre-heat button on the oven.

 but they try to be in depth.  I guess I understand.

 but it's sickening how much food we throw away in this country. When I worked the homeless shelters, we did get donated leftover food, and the meals that we served, anybody could come in and eat. idk, I shouldn't have said anything, but wasn't expecting to be attacked, and definitely not over personal appearance.  Sometimes I do retaliate, but not always.  I get to go back in about 7 hours, and no, I haven't  really learned my lesson.  whatever.

 going to be doing pick and pack at an automotive warehouse. it's part-time, so won't affect my disability check. it's a little bit of a drive but straight hwy and interstate, already hoping my anxiety doesn't flare up in inclement weather. I'm starting this Wednesday, will be good to get back into a routine, 2 p.m. until we're done, M-F, and will be nice to get off the sauce, and out of the house.  I'm hoping for the best, and a long term job.

 

 well, I'd be a hypocrite.  I just wish when I talk or say something he doesn't say, Yes, Sheri, why do you talk all stupid stuff.  If it wasn't for me, I doubt we'd talk at all.

 to think it's all for you.  Did you, Jason Kant, my best friend. and why does it hurt. I did that in high school. we kid, regardless of love not gotten, Seniors should get it all.

 I don't know a whole about it, some, worked with clients, diabetes. aunt Betty is dying.  I would hope it's okay to say a Catholic prayer. love.

 people walking in there, and it's a small place, no masks on, the cashier today, no mask on, and when the manager is in there, no mask. it's supposed to be mandatory.

 moved into this house, loved it, then after about a year, I hated it, and wanted a different house, dreamed about it too. published This Sky I Know, read it over and over, and loved it, but after a year, reading it, I hated it, it wasn't good enough. today?  love my house, love my book.  hmm, idk.

 if I was ever a teacher, I'd push the envelope on this one. would have to be a public school. big fan.

 I think I read suicide rates have doubled, maybe tripled during pandemic. plus all these kids, and not being able to enjoy their childhood.

 was being an athlete while raising a CF'er. it wasn't really done for her, though, just to say, "Better." she was my fan, then I was her fan. I paid for a modern dance class for her, but she went once, and never went back. I've never seen her dance, seen lots of her singing and music, though. I don't think she ever took a poetry class in college, she wrote a little bit though. she's never had a drop of alcohol, and never smoked a cigarette.  amazing.

 at work, if I walk by a phone, or get near it, it rings, and then someone answers and no one is there. this has happened several times due to surveillance, including the other day at my drug screening, the receptionist, or anyone, acts like this is no big deal, but I know the truth.  Also, when I had my own landline, I used to get the one ring phone calls, and my parents got that too, and blamed it on my brother's girlfriend, but no, and he even told them she wasn't doing it, and I told them what it really was, and all I got was silence. these days on my cell phone, I get many calls that I answer with no one there.  Phil says this is some of telemarketing glitch, or some kind of bot, but no.  I told my phone company I wanted protection but she said, "If it's the government, they can do whatever they want." well fuck no, they can't!

 this too is near death experience, or, PTSD. the news constantly has something worse than mind surveillance torture.

 been thru enough sexual harrassment on the job.  They had this idea that you were there for them.

 And you did in 2005, trips to see family, and no addictions.

every job, they hated you for being there.  why should she bring this here, like it was me!  town, state, keep lookin'. 

"you're a hag."  Try coming to DeWittt Iowa and saying that to my face, you coward. 

 it was a mistake your whole life, Sheri.

 Notice we got the Trump syndrome, omg, called every name, refuted, denied, then defending, sorry Sheri but that's not allowed.  Well put up with me on here.  Gone for 3 days, all of it provoked by others.

Full recovery after this.  just gotta get thru it.  no one, Sheri made you think it wasn't life-shattering. 

 I don't recall a lot of your works being about drinking.

 On PBS Newshour.  She said, See you soon. hmmm.

 3 or 4 straight days of white skies.  every day seems like the last.

I don't think I'd get these warranty calls if I ever bought a brand new car.  ahh, well, idk. 

 does it piss you off?  yes, it does.  nah, you're such a softie, Sheri.

 Job Coach, for intellectual disabilities, in Clinton, Iowa. I would love it. part time, excellent.  $11/hr. wish me luck!

 the sports announcers on t.v. then they act like I'm the only who does it. ah huh.

from pics I've seen, it was started in certain areas, but I don't think it was ever finished there, could be wrong.  idk.  it's hard to believe, all the loyalists.   

 I've done a lot of activism, but the best I did was This Sky I Know, everybody has put it into art.  When/if I get free, interestingly, then I'll be worth watching.  

 I got him a memory foam pillow, a long sleeve gray shirt, and slippers. it's so hard, because a lot of his old friends are dying. he's so lucky after that major surgery that those polyps weren't cancerous. God doesn't want him yet.

 saw it on Facebook.  Phil says it's bullshit. I'm going to call the DMV tomorrow, find out.

 going back to finish your college degree with two disabled kids, and then thinking you'd take on the world, and then your own disability.  Nice try, Sheri.