just a combination of many things, social media, no free speech, after all the time I've spent, Phil's diagnosis, my fight for justice inching on 30 years of fighting, and seeing no light at the end of tunnel, thinking I'm doing it all myself, and can't get a simple reply of encouragement. plus I do everything to access, and getting burnt out so often, they made fun of me about that too, when so many people are like me. you think you got me figured out, think again! I've decided to stay on my blog, and keep Messenger, and the internet, but no social media posts anymore, but I haven't deleted any account.
just remembering when I had sciatia real bad, and I called out for Phil to help me get out there to the kitchen cuz I could barely walk, and I sensed (was it intutition, yeah) people watching shook their head and were thinking, Jesus, she expects him to do everything. who was it mostly, Sheri. women. Gov: how bout we create and put this woman in a program where everyone will find fault in her. ummm, will it work? ahhhh, yes it will. and it did. and does.
ReplyDeletewant another beer, Sheri? yes. going back to this job? I don't know. I don't want to lose all my disability stuff, but don't want to sit in this house anymore either.
ReplyDeletethey especially love it when you hate yourself, Sheri. stop doing that.
ReplyDeletewhat else was it/ when you got money from Dave. Jesus, she doesn't deserve that, always counting on someone else, what, so she's got schizophrenia and is in a program, big deal, get a job!
ReplyDeleteit's tough love, when they knew you were doing good. ah huh. got screwed outta that job. I guess they never mention that.
ReplyDeleteyou did the same for your daughter, Sheri, you didn't want anyone to feel sorry for her. right, I'm not public property though, and this is not a contest of seeing who wins with so much pain. I told Phil one day, I used one day I used to use my treadmill while watching The View. He said it was a bitch fest. I told him the only difference is they do it out loud, and I do it in writing. except my creative writing.
ReplyDeleteyou don't want to screw up this job, Sheri, temps are treated good here for once. it'll be a little while. never should have walked home from the ER.
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