about deep down depression

 good to hear.

I’ve had episodes of darkness come into me,
deep inside.

one was a few days after getting off the unit,
in the car, parked, listening the song

Help is on the Way, but it never came.
first time I heard it.
I was instantly suicidal.

thought about going back into the unit,
but didn’t.
we were going into sled hockey, my son,
and I think while he was playing,
I went to a local bar,
never the right remedy,
but needed something
to get thru that.