Beth, I've proven myself as a writer. I knew it wasn't all for not. :) I think people DO believe me. Lots don't though. I've never been physically brought down by anyone in the system, but I have pushed the envelope so many times. Me too, doesn't go the distance. We escaped into books, didn't we? And fun events. I was told that by someone in Des Moines, fight a little bit, but live your life. Go back to the drawing board. I had so much to do. Raising you guys, the challenges you two faced. Being there, trying to make money. All of it mattered, Beth.