Just thinking about saying not doing things for show

it is a good feeling though to prove people wrong.

pretty sure nobody thinks I can quit drinking.

it's not a motivation though.

Fox news can't understand why I do the things I do under surveillance.

I guess I can try to make it look good.  whatever that means.

my motivation right now is to not throw up and be sick all the time.

I still have some.  not nearly as terrible though.