being treated like shit is not in my psyche, and I try to tell Phil, after all these years of captivity, I want to be free to be me, and most people fear this. I'm not able to write anyone because of how bad things are with my family. Phil and I knew, things are going good for us, and still they would all find something wrong. I doubt there's any love in their hearts. I go thru the worst of targeting, one of the worst disabilities, then they purposely try to ruin me.