it's no good

Not in so many words, but my pdoc thinks I’m turning manic. She said she sees this in patients who are highly motivated and do lots of things all day, and also don’t sleep at night, or have bad insomnia. Geez. I’m not manic! I’m not sick. This is the real me now. She won’t lower my meds, doesn’t want to change anything, even after me saying I’m hearing of lots of my clients who took these psych meds for years, and they didn’t make it to see 60. yeah. She is glad I’m not as paranoid. I guess.