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hasn't taken me under her wng yet, though. 

 absolutely.

 until I witnessed with my kids, life gaurd, saving a kid. She was previously in my CCD class.

you wrote it when you were twenty, I am nothing. 

 they won't return phone calls. My eyes.  I just want antibiotic eye drops, is that so hard to do??

and then for some reason he's not drunk or stoned, and he's awake in his man cave. I'm okay. 

 finally, years later , told everybody let him learn thru computer games.  and Renee Green did!

but I found out by chance, read out loud With me, Beth. and the rest is history.  Hope she does that with Benny. 

 no matter what kind of crap job you've done, be the best damn worker on the job. those years at The Abbey Hotel, everybody watching couldn't believe their eyes. yeah, but it wasn't for show. I wish Ronnie would have read. went there listening to Mountain Stage in my car, then the shuttle when I got there, listening to Garrison Keillor. omg, good times. didn't even need to work that job, Alec's check would have gone up. Beth at home, with grandpa, watching Red Green, her little wheels turning.

 took him all over to many peditricians, and they never knew how to handle him. some gave me stink eyes, thinkin' I'm a bad mother. a lot of that was from targeting, it got around. do they even know, You walking out one door in the house, and Dave walking out the other one, and who's the one who turned around. I think I was going to meet a guy, can't remember.

 I bet you don't eat, Sheri. getting my Scoobies in though. Phil picked them up for me, and they came with pamphlets. they stopped doing that a long time ago with me. who knows.

 not til I was living there, pregnant, in early twenties, and they had two young adopted sons. the main reason why I left, and got on welfare. who hated you then?   lots.  best thing I did.

 dedicated to his parents, and Norman Dubie. Not good, and Dave knew it, pouring over that thesis, what you did to your mind. it ended.  not diagnosised til age 27.

 !dk, it wasn't really history in school, it was still current!

 .well, wasn't it just one college.  they may have. what's today?  nothing.  done with all that.

but hell, I met Phil.  I guess that's good. sometimes I just looked around for writers. Why in the fuck wasn't I going out the way I met Dave, kid's dad. 

 just make it swift.

 the counselor told me, Every thought you've ever had has been thought by someone else. kinda pissed, but he did introduce me to The Cry For Justice, said he read it cover to cover in 24 hours.  we parted good.  never went back though.

 believe there was no response, she was young, and wanted everything to be pleasant. well, I'll tell ya today, Beth, guillitine.

 are we calling them Gen Y, or Gen Z. ugh.  the poets hated categories, especially Keats, and that was a long long time ago. is it true that teens don't know about faxing.  don't know.

Who really was saint John, the Baptist.  a great holy man.  but I believe another one, head on a platter. 

 he made coffee, so I know he's awake. see if maybe he checks on me after Mason. 2 days out on my Scoobies.

 I think it was a St. Patricks Day party, and we all played Bingo. Alec won, and got a gift, and I had him pick out crayons and coloring book. the one male volunteer there may have may have gotten the wrong impression when the party ended.  He wanted to pick up his crayons, and put em back in. "No.  Alec will do it himself." probably my fondest memory of those events was square dancing, lots of adults, no idea, the clients didn't really get into it. Alec loved it.  it was a wonderful Spring day, and I had no addictions.

 telling his audience, Call in or text, this your show, it's everybody's show. yep.  That's how to be a good Leader.

 when we switched to E Free, Baptism was like nothing. if you elected it, it could be at age 14. there was nothing holy about that church.

 Said he'd be the president of the company one day. too bad his pecker got in the way.

 I was just starting school, age 5, and 9th graders were there smoking. I guess I could have been driven to school by my parents. by 1st grade I was failing.

 I cleaned the whole kitchen, and re-arranged things. mom wasn't too happy. I even tried to scrub off baking sheets.  Like, impossible.

 that I think my diagnosis is wrong, think I have schizoaffective, all the paranoid crap is real.

 one day when we were gone, on 10th street, I was about 6, she got out and ran all the way over to aunt Kathy and uncle Steve's house. I don't even recall her ever being there.  Snoopy and Deoge, forever love.

 mom never learned how to swim. we'd go all day, and then again after supper. it was true.  I got cramps after eating and then getting in the pool.

 not really.

 but I'm not getting them on my blog on my laptop.

the trans guy, he seemed to know how to live. not sure about my daughter watching it. Did not like Chicago musical though. Chloe's favorite movie.  again, not sure about my daughter. 

 but the new liquor store is so much cheaper. The higher prices at the those others go to our schools though. We just return cans there, at Mac's, only place now in town.

 can't we just get you microwave foods, entrees?  a lot safer. and while I'm at it, I've told you a hundred times, I don't like ribs. one overnight, they were on low cooking all night. bills go up, food gets ruined, who knows, Phil.

 "and here comes a temp, looking stupid."

 Ashley.  he tried going back up to her bedroom with firemen's ladder, she wouldn't come out. he was cooking after drinking all night, fell asleep, think the hand towel caught on fire, and that was it.

my God!  I charge 10 bucks for 8 hours.  20 for all day and overnight. basically they just want a companion. 

 when he bought me a diamond ring. I wear flannel, Phil, don't you know me by now? ah huh, and he doesn't like it either, he wants you to nice like any other woman. omg, I'm one in a million, Phil!

 My daughter was really into as a teen and beyond.  so, I watched quite a bit of it too. But it appears to be God awful now. wish they'd show success stories of former shows.  maybe there aren't any.

 well some people, maybe lots, leave and maybe get into wood working.

 no a cent from him on bills this month, all for beer, smokes, steaks, and his gas guzzling Hummie.

he brings me as supper breaded cod fish, said I didn't want breaded,  ah huh. other times, he says he heard everything I just said.  he may hear, but it doesn't click.  WTF. 

 "You gotta make it your testimony."  ha!  It is.

 let's go out and make babies, like one every year, sure, yep.

 The birth mother did everything to get her daughter back.  The adoptive parents had grown old shoe.

so far, no, with Eliza.  it'll take time.  she prefers daddy. 

 who liked it more, you, or your kids?  I think I did.  lots of overtones they didn't catch.  good times.

 well, it could be 6 p.m. what's the difference of time.

 kinda.  We blew it though. well why didn't Bush? Trump?

 Phil, where's a towel we don't care about for Eliza when she comes in from the yard/

 my eyes are all messed up right now, but stomach feels okay. horrendous cough though, kept me from sleeping. Phil doesn't get the coughing.  Eliza sleeps on his couch with him, not gonna bother him til daybreak, but he went to sleep shortly after the game show.  idk.

  for me it’s not psychosis, just complete despair, and burning, or burnt out. could happen to anyone really.

 What is the most repeated thing I've said on my blog.  ha.  This might be one of em.  ha.

 but had to tell Phil, when she comes in, still running around, jumping and nipping, it's not the right time to put her in the kennel. she's happy, Phil.

pretty amazing with a child with Down syndrome, but had been following what I was doing. I only know that about the manager, cuz I went back awhile to get my mail, even though I had transferred our new address.  there's always errors, and I knew this woman wasn't going to return it.  at least she didn't throw it away.

 foot bath, reversed order. wish her, and me, kept doing that. told the docs and nurses in Iowa City, they may or may not have thought I'm an over-bearing CF mother. But I don't think they had ever heard of it. we don't know what's going on with our internal organs.

  when I see, look, watch something, Every single broadcaster in the world sees it too! they think they're watching a movie, until They're in the movie. longest movie ever.

 DeWitt girls went on win state in soccer.  hmm, hated to see her cry her senior year.  she got the All Heart trophy, though.  yep yep.

 Dina switched to there.  They had good looking guys, especially Mike.  when I came to visit for the day, he called in sick.  ha.

 

 with Eliza, thought she'd eat like all my other doggies, a bowl at breakfast, a bowl at supper, so we're leaving it out just like we did for Deoge.  she's good about going outside though, and doesn't bark or scratch at the door to come in.  just a little bit of nipping, but then we've been putting her in the kennel to settle down.

 but, did you ever ride in your dad's white vette, Sheri?  No, don't think so, but dad washed and waxed it a lot.

 Phil says, "Get off of Sheri's roads."  I said you got that right, Phil.  ha.

 Woke Eliza up to go out potty, and to get breakfast, but honey, do you know where our government is? she likes sleepin' with daddy in his man cave.